As a kid, I loved watching talent shows. My favorite was It’s Showtime at the Apollo; my stepbrother and sister tuned in every week and I loved it. I especially liked that the audience controlled the outcome; it was really just about giving everyone a change to do their thing. After I moved out, I continued to watch until they changed the format a while back. I don’t know what bugged me about it, probably just that I dislike change, period.
Sometime in 2007 or 2008, I started watching talent shows again, starting with the ubiquitous American Idol. This was around the same time that a rather incredible sea change rocked my life, and everything I did seemed entirely new to me-very few proscriptions carried over from my “old life”.
As time went on, I started watching all of them. The Voice, X Factor, X Factor US, America’s Got Talent, Britain’s Got Talent, RuPaul’s Drag Race, and the list goes on. I also watch clips from other countries’ talent shows on youtube. For a while I think I was vaguely embarrassed by my habit, until I thought about *why*: it’s something that teenage girls supposedly -do-, and “everyone knows” that once teenage girls start doing something, it automatically becomes worthless and worthy of mockery. So, I stopped being vaguely embarrassed.
I think two random things this week finally highlighted for me *why* i do this, and it’s ridiculously obvious once I say it…
This is the only chance I get to see people like me on television.